No words.

Too Much Thinking, or So I Think..

I feel like I've spent most of my time so far in D.C. just thinking. Whenever I'm outside of my element and in a different environment, I naturally end up reflecting on my life and how things could be different.

One of the thoughts that runs through my head on a day-to-day basis, is the fact that I am going to have a lot of school debt. And I mean a lot of school debt. Easily over $100,000. I often think what if. What if I hadn't gone to the school I chose to attend, or what if I didn't go to school at all? I don't even know what I want now, and I can guarantee I didn't know what I wanted when I was 17/18 years old.

How could THIS person know anything except what kind of clothes she likes, and what color fingernail polish she wants to put on next?

How could THIS person fully understand what personal loans are, and what they are going to mean for her future?

What if I wouldn't have gone to school? I could have decided I wanted to travel to different cities, and work random odd jobs to make that dream happen. No debt, only enough to get by and see what I want to see, do the things I want to do. What if I decided I want that now? What if I want to jump from city to city? With looming debt along with the grueling payments that will commence only 6 shorts months after I'm out of school..  

Everything will work out, it always does. Someday I will understand why I chose the paths I've chosen. But, in the mean time I'm left feeling somewhat remorseful. Disappointed in the fact that I didn't hold onto the gift of being carefree, for just a little bit longer.

Gettysburg

I took a picture in this exact spot my Freshman year of High School, 7 years ago

Ohio!

Can you see the rainbow?

5 States, 1 Day

We arrived safely in D.C. around 9:30 last night! Our initial plans were to leave around 5am on Monday, but we over slept and decided to not depart until Tuesday. We left around 8:30 Tuesday morning, and stopped in Gettysburg, PA on the way. I was in five states yesterday! (Ohio, West Virginia, Pennsylvania, Maryland, and Virginia) Crazy, right? - Here are a few pictures of the drive!

Most of them have a least a little bit of a glare.. but that's what I get for taking pictures from the car! I missed a few of the "Welcome" signs too, but oh well. I obviously have tons more pictures, so if you're a friend of mine on Facebook look for all the pictures to be up within the next few days! xoxo

"License To Chill"

One week from yesterday, I will be here!

Starting Monday, I will be spending one week in Washington D.C, at least one day in Baltimore, followed by a week in NC at "License To Chill." 

Summa lovin'

Finally!

I have been searching for what seems like forever to find my favorite alcoholic beverage. Especially since I've been able to order my own drinks, I've really wanted to find something that I really like. I always feel lame walking up to the bar and being like, "uhhh, give me something that tastes like coconut" "give me something with grapefruit juice in it!"

This past weekend I visited my sister and her friend, and we decided to go bowling. While we were there, we decided to order some drinks. My sister ordered and I tried what she decided on. And now, I am proud to announce I finally found my favorite drink!

Helllllo White Russian!! I tasted it and thought it was amazing, but I actually kind of forgot about it after that night. Last night, however, I randomly decided to watch The Big Lebowski on Netflix, which I hadn't seen before.. and if you've never seen it, the main character is drinking a White Russian in pretty much every scene. I quickly remembered the deliciousness, and went to the liquor store today to buy the necessary ingredients. Needless to say, I'm enjoying a self-made White Russian as I type this.

It is odd that I didn't discover this before, considering everyone knows I tend to Keep Up with the Kardashians.. and Kim is also a White Russian lover! 

11 Days

This is definitely how I feel lately. The start of my vacation is only 11 days away, and I'll be on the beach in 16. You'd think since I haven't really gone on a legit vacation since I was in the fourth grade, I would have had some motivation to work on my beach bod. The next 11 days = Crunch Time!

March 10th, 2008

I wrote this a little over three years ago, during my senior year of high school. I stumbled upon it when I randomly decided to log into my old MySpace account. 

"This winter has lasted an eternity.

My attitude expresses my boredom, and anticipation for spring.

I feel like I've been inside forever.

The temperature stays below zero, but the sun comes out and all of a sudden,

I'm bouncing off the walls.

Recently while sitting in utter silence,(and complete boredom) I realized things that used to matter to me most, now have asbolutely no meaning.

I've endeavored so much in the past four years it seems, and now I'm suddenly letting everything I've ever wanted lack purpose.

My friends have randomly become my enemies, and it's odd that I also find this to lack any purpose what's so ever, and have no desire to fix it.

So many times before I've been convinced that I knew exactly how I wanted the rest of my life to unfold.

I'm plain now.. and have no idea.(but it's beautiful)

For once, I have no idea what I want my next step in life to be.

I don't have the slightest idea when all these things became meaningless.

It could have been a month ago, it could have been yesterday.

It somewhat disturbs me that so many things in my life have become so insignificant.

I find myself caring for very few people, and those few aren't the ones I'd expect them to be.

Apparently, my body and sould have decided it's time for me to be done with this place, and move on.

The many years of my life that I have spent here, have been enough.

My entire being is preparing for the next big step in my life, and it's all instinct.. I have no control.

All my priorities have moved to different places.

I am ready to move on, to wherever it is I need to move on to.

Where I'm going is a bridge I'm going to have to cross very soon, and I'm anxious to see my next destination.

I havn't decided exactly who I'm going to keep with me the rest of my life, but I know there aren't very many.

There are some I'll purposely forget, and I'm drastically anxious to meet new people to easily replace those forgotten.

Wherever my next destination is, I'll go there with a smile.

and I have absolutely no desire to ever come back here, again."

...I did what I said I was going to do, incase you're wondering.